The time now is 9.53pm and i'm already feeling very tired and sleepy although i didn't do much at work today. I shall head to bed early tonight. Probably at about 10.30pm. Let me just rant on here for a while before i head to bed.

Have you ever felt angry and depressed at yourself due to your own characteristics and attitude? Well, I DO. I just hate the fact that i tend to avoid taking chances just because i'm afraid of making mistakes. It's so frustrating. At times, i do have the strong urge and motivation to try something new, take up any chances and do something new but my fears never fail to creep up to me, brainwashing me and telling myself that i'll make mistakes and that the whole world will come to an end once i make mistakes and that everyone will hate and judge me just because i made that one mistake.

I also hate the fact that i can get overly sensitive and overly self-conscious. I think this is due to self-esteem issues. Yes, i do have low self-esteem and i hate it. I am always so afraid of being judged.